I think about how little I have blogged these past few months and I struggle to fully explain, even to myself, why that it. If you look through the almost 400 posts from the past four years, I tend to blog far more when I am stressed, sad, or troubled. I think that is more because photography is such distraction and a fulfilling part of my life that I at least tend to take pictures and post them in challenging times.
I don't know how or why I have lost that these past few months--I could have used that distraction and some fulfillment as there have been some significant changes and endings in my life. Certainly the most challenging is where (and with whom) I live. I have thought a great deal on how to say this, and I had some help in figuring out how to say it like this. "I don't share my/a house/home with my former significant other-type person." This has necessitated me moving and settling into a new house and all that this means. Heck, I guess one reason I haven't taken any pictures is that I couldn't even find a camera for awhile.
But as always, there are new beginnings that happen only with loss and changes. I do have a new place to live and (slowly) I am making it more than just that. As I have written before at other turning points in my life, I am safe and warm and healthy and and and--I am ok and I will be even better with time. I am wiring new pathways in my brain and heart to help me figure out where I want to go from here, and those new pathways are allowing me to learn new things, big and small.
I have always loved sunflowers, and they do provide comfort. Better yet, they provide a good starting point on all these new pathways. Hey, I found my cameras--who knows where all this will lead?
